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Story 4

  Lisa Shapter

Planet 38, which appeared previously in 4 Star Stories, was the 38th world, and"Planet 42 Alpha" the 42nd out of 74 places Magistrate Resada Gestae returns to. Not all of these 74 stories are narrated by Gestae, but it is Gestae's story.  Having the same narrator in three is a plus, as you saw in Issue 28's "Planet 42 Alpha" and will see in Lisa Shapter's "Planet 42 Beta," concluded in this issue.

Editor's Note: Please close the Issue 28 window before continuing in Issue 29. 

We hope you enjoy "Planet 42 Beta," continued from Issue 28, in which Magistrate Resada Gestae is rescued from her crippled spaceship, has her injuries treated, and is unexpectedly reunited with her husband. 

If you would like to read "Planet 42 " in its submitted entirety, with previously omitted material, but with the organization and editing of "Planet 42 Alpha" and "Planet 42 Beta," go to "Planet 42 (Editor's Cut)".  

Lisa Shapter is a member of the Authors’ Guild, an alumna of the Bread Loaf Young Writers’ Conference, a member of the Dramatists’ Guild of America, and an associate member of SFWA. She lives in New England, collects antique typewriters, is researching a history of 20th century women science fiction authors, and is writing a network of 74 interrelated short stories, novellas, and a play. Her science fiction play “The Other Two Men” was on the Suggested Reading List for the Ray Bradbury Award for Outstanding Dramatic Presentation.  It was produced at the Players’ Ring of Portsmouth, New Hampshire. Her linked short stories have appeared in Tree and Stone, A Coup of Owls, and Black Denim Lit, among others. Her alternate history novella A Day in Deep Freeze was published by Aqueduct Press.

Planet 42 Beta Intro:
Everything I write puts people in historical situations from women's history or queer history: not the group marriages, themselves, but who to rely on and whether and how to invest in something that starts as survival.

                                                                                                                                                 -- Lisa Shapter




Planet 42 Beta

By Lisa Shapter

 

     The return trip did not go so well. I made a mistake plotting my course. The Shoebill’s apparent gravity was disabled by an impact, and my last conscious sight was the floor coming at me, as I wondered if the team on the planet on the inner orbit had sabotaged my ship.

     I woke up, and someone was trying to put something over my head. I tried to fight him off, and, unlike most Corpsmen, he did not try to pin my arms: I would have gone for my sidearm if he had. Instead, he let me take in that the inside of the helmet had air, and I instinctively reached to pull it on. While my hands were busy with automatic adjustments and checks, he made the tears at the appropriate catchpoints in my thermals for vitals monitoring. He was only doing his job: he pulled me onto a splayed-out suit, and quickly fastened and sealed all the components, starting with my core. The suit automatically set up its connections and monitoring leads and lit up with healing fields. I was briefly blind while it shut off my optic nerves, so I would not see the visual disturbances caused by running the fields over my eyes. My sight was back before I had time to gasp. With the oxygen and fixes to my injuries the pain in my head cleared, but I lay still and let him finish fastening the suit’s legs and arms as the suit replaced hypothermic cold with warmth,  and let those fields finish their work. The process went faster if I did not try to help.

     The Corpsman’s gloved thumb did the final external checks, touching a pressure switch on my chest and on the side of my helmet. Everything seemed to have a green light, and the suit apparently reported all of my injuries had been treated.

     I was looking through permiglass at what might as well have been the face of a popular young American football captain who has no idea why people admired him: my rescuer was blond, handsome, fair-skinned, and a picture of wholesome, tanned good health. A colony life of regular outdoor exercise in a moderate climate with a mostly vegetarian diet obviously agreed with him. There were care lines on his face, emphasized when he was worried, but they vanished when I smiled at him. He grinned back through his faceplate.

     “Is that better, Magistrate Gestae?” his voice said over the helmet’s output.

     He might as well have said ‘coach’.

     “Much. Nightskyman?”

     “First Lieutenant Vester Coy. I’ll get you into the Spes, and check the tow line,” she, for Coy was her world’s mother, grabbed me in a rescue carry, secure and strong, but not the crushing squeeze most grunts would use. She hauled me into the back of the small craft parked in my ship’s central corridor, sealed the craft’s doors, and, with a disorienting flip and yaw, flew out my ship’s atmospheric door with exactly the neat maneuver for getting through a door designed for people, not scout craft.

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     I found myself on her main ship’s hospital bed, still in my spacesuit, as she cheerfully went out to do the dangerous check on the towline between her working ship and my disabled one. Another set of healing fields and I was well enough to take the suit off myself and push it into the hopper for processing. The medical computer told me to lie back down, and I agreed: the brief effort had made the edges of my vision turn dark grey. A mechanical arm came down from the ceiling and whirred while the ship’s medical computer looked for the right placement for hydration and monitoring leads. The whole room became glorious in all its utilitarian, rounded-corner white and lilac glory: the ship had boosted the med lab’s oxygen content.

     My rescuer was taking off her suit at the other end of the corridor and singing some ancient song in a weird modality. She sounded happy. I heard her boots thudding up the corridor.

     “How’re we doing, Magistrate Gestae?”

     Again it sounded like ‘coach’.

     “‘Resada’ will do.”

     “OK, Resada.”

     It still sounded like ‘coach’.

     She came over to look into my face. I looked back at her.

     “Your record says you’ve got a husband. It’s just the oxygen and the endorphins,” she cautioned. “It’ll wear off.”

     “I don’t like women,” I assured her.

     “That’s a shame, women are great,” she said, the unthinking opinion of any young man on earth, as though Coy did not remember she was in farspace or the changes done to her.

     I could not get a crush on this woman: I really didn’t like women, and her sunny temperament already grated on me.

     She thumped forward, and I lay in the medlab until I felt the bump of the ship entering atmosphere. I felt for the datatablet she had put on the bedside tray.

     Coy, I thought we were going back to base,’ I typed.

     “I can’t leave my kids right now,” the doorside intercom replied. “I’ve sent a message to your husband.”

     “I’m not authorized to land....”

     “Your record says you are,” Coy said. “I know why you were on that world. Stay with us awhile, rest up, your spouse will come and get you, and you can go to the next world together.”

     I thought about that lovely idea for a long moment. Orders kept us apart. The Exploratory Corp ignores marriages when it gives orders; farspace is too large to see that every pair and group stay together, no matter what their rank or training.

     “I have our ship, Coy.”

     It would be months for Coy’s message to reach my assigned world; it would take months for my husband’s reply to reach here. My ship would need to be repaired. Even if my husband somehow got passage on a second ship, and left the moment Coy’s message arrived, he would take even further months to get here. I did not want to stay here for most of a year. I did not want to become part of this family. I did not want what could never be mine hung in front of my face.

     Her ship lurched and rocked. Emergency fields held me to the bed, and inertial dampeners made it feel like a brief carnival ride rather than a life-threatening danger.

     “This is the Pisces #2456, the Spes, at 27 km. Watch your descent, you’re within the 150 meter minimum,” Lt Coy said, far calmer than I would have been.

     “Climbing to 30 km. Sorry, Spes, sudden decal. We were in the area,” the door-side intercom relayed: Coy had not shut off the piloting room pickup. It was not the voice of my husband, but of one of the guards assigned to be sure I went to the meetings with my perpetrators and that I followed all Corps orders.

     I would have to put up with him needling me about this mission and my past mistakes all the way to the next world, starting with letting my ship connect with an asteroid.

     Of course my guard had not been in the area: this ship had come from a base relaying the message out to my husband. I do not know how my custodian had gotten permission to do it, but he had put the ship in classified emergency mode, and the craft had punched a hole in the universe to get here. In minutes my minder would be standing over my bed, asking why I had smashed up my ship, left the inner world with my assignment unfinished, and how I had been dumb enough to be away from the piloting console while flying through hazards. Nothing was a good reason to him. I curled up in the bed and put my arm over my head. The medical computer noticed my agitation and gave me a sedative.

###

     I woke up to the smell of pancakes, the faint smells of sawdust and clay, and a smell like roses. I was not dreaming. I was lying in a strange, deep soft bed with warm covers drawn up to my shoulders, pleasant flannel bedding, and a perfectly comfortable pillow. Gravity was so close to earth’s that I would have to get out of bed and jump up and down to tell the difference. I could hear the soft draft and crackle of a fireplace; just enough muted wind and rain to make the house cozy; and the sound of someone making tea or tisane with a metal kettle, metal spoons and thick, clay mugs. The table or counter top had some kind of quilted mats or protective covering, nothing had been put down on bare wood or stone.

     “You can’t fool me, you’re awake.”

     I twisted and sat up: my husband was sitting at my bedside, smiling. After years of not seeing him I poked him in the chest: I had dreamed or hallucinated his presence before. The combination of med lab drugs and danger, or an unnoticed microinjury to the brain, made the possibility of hallucination likely. He was here. I threw my arms around him and pulled him onto the bed.

     “I am so glad to see you.”

     Rain kissed me and put his arms around me. He said nothing, he didn’t need to say anything.

     “How did you...?”

     “It’s a long and not a completely happy story,” my husband said, holding me tightly. “Your ship’s emergency beacon reached us before Lt Coy’s message did, and as much as I wanted to blaze here it wasn’t my idea.”

     “Are our guards in the room?”

     Rain nodded.

     “How many of them?”

     “Two,” a gruff voice answered from the direction of the table.

     “And we’re not supposed to leave the two of you alone,” a second voice said. Heavy, booted feet came up to the foot of the bed across a wooden floor. “Sorry,” he added. “You two have a history of....”

     “Conspiracy, collusion, confiscation, and desertion,” Rain said, getting up with another kiss. “I remember. You arrested us,” he patted my hand and said softly, “everything else will have to wait.”

     “Back away, and speak at a normal volume.”

     Rain looked irritated: it was not his way to be sentimental, but he looked ready to half-shout pillow talk in order to embarrass our guards into leaving. I knew what they would do: they would set their faces and stay no matter what we did, not wanting to give us a cover for planning further criminal activities.

     “I hate them,” I said, not caring if my tone was not quiet enough to be inaudible two meters away.

     Rain shrugged, “we earned the Corp’s mistrust. I tried to get you back to base the moment I found you and you sabotaged my ship.”

     “Now what?”

     “We take you back to base,” the guard at the foot of my bed replied.

     “Couldn’t you leave them alone?” a voice said from the table, this world’s commander, Edward Philips. He spoke with the shadow of an order in his voice, although no commander could tell any Magistrate what to do, and our two guards were Magistrates. The guard in the kitchen was saying something. “Out,” Edward said. “Both of you out. I will see to this woman’s welfare while she is on our world,” he saw them both out and followed.

     “I can’t imagine they’ve gone far,” Rain murmured.

     “I’m tired and upset....”

     “I know,” he said softly. “I am, too -- I’ll explain another time.” He bent to take off his boots and pulling back the covers then got into bed with all his clothes on. He put his arms around me. “You have no idea how difficult my life is without you. Every day I wish you were with me, wish I could know what you think, want to talk with you, plan with you. Every day I wish I didn’t have to go to bed alone, eat without you, no matter how many colonists and staff are there ….” Rain let out a deep sigh. “I love you so much I can’t stand being married and barely seeing you.”

     “You took the words out of my mouth,” I said. “I just want to sleep.”

     “Do you want some hot tea? Tisane really, this is the wrong latitude for tea.”

     That sounded lovely, but it would get cold by the time I woke up again. I listened to the drowsy sounds of the fireplace and the weather outside.

     “Sure.”

     He got out of bed. I heard the sound of hot water pouring from a kettle, and he brought two mugs over from the kitchen table.

     “I don’t think I’ve ever tasted anything like it, but you get used to it.”

     I took a drink, it was pleasantly hot, and... something naturally sweet like brown baking spices, or maybe sassafras, hearty like a roasted, brown rice tea, a tang that was not sourness or astringency. It all went by too quickly and was too strange to put into words, not while I was this tired. I was glad to have something hot to drink that was not ship’s coffee.

     “So?” I said.

     “We’re together now,” Rain said with a shrug. It was exactly like him to accept the moment for what it was. “Sleep sounds good. I sleep better when I’m with you.”

     I had a miserable image in my mind’s eye of him restless with insomnia, alone in our bed on our world.

     I looked around for somewhere to put the mostly-full cup, and found a windowsill just deep enough for a lantern, a mug, and a book. I already liked these people. I listened to the tinkling coals forming under the firewood and the mild fall drizzle.

     “Is there any way we could stay?”

     “Hmm, that first moment of coming to -- to find someone sitting by your bedside -- can be a surprising one: it sometimes changes lives.”

     Rain jostled the bed, moving to see how close to the window our guards were, then looked at me as if everyone in the universe would love me at first sight, as he had. He went on before I could ask him any question about some bedside memory he did not mention. He had never been ill.

     He settled in by me and took a drink, considering how to say something charged.

     “You made Vester nervous.” My husband observed; his indirectness made me anxious. “She’s a simple soul, she fell in love with her husband when she was sent on a rescue mission after his scout craft. They were marooned on the world, alone together for months.”

     “Then they must understand our story.”

     “Well nobody shot the engine in their story,” my husband replied.

     I shrugged, “just glad to see a friendly face. I was blacking out from ox dep and hyp.”

     I was astonished Rain was not jealous: I worried I sounded insincere. I felt for his hand and felt the same grasp as the hand that took mine the day we married -- on the first day we met. I tried to add up how much time we’d spent together: the stay here to recover and repair my ship might be more than that.

     “You’ll want to make that clear to her before we leave.”

     Rain was bemused, shutting the door on nothing, waiting for my answer.

     It was hard to get used to thinking of that footballer’s frame as female.

     “Her record doesn’t say she’s been to base for the changes I went through,” I said, wondering if I had missed something.

     “Experimental procedure, all of it onworld, pills and medlab visits. It worked: they have two children, one grandchild, two more on the way. Successful colony, even with just the two of them. They could use more people even with their assigned staff.”

     I thought of Coy’s caution and felt a very disturbing reality that I might be able to love more than one person at once. It was just there, clear, with no one in mind. I had dated three people once on earth before I enlisted. It hadn’t lasted long, and they moved on without me. If I did ever want to expand our marriage, Rain would have to want that too, with just the same people. I did not want to marry Coy; instead, I felt sad that I had married too quickly with too little discussion and had too little time being married.

     “Would you... would you ever want to widen our marriage, Rain?”

     “I’d be willing to try,” Rain said, astonishing me. “Do you want to stay here?” he said, with his utter acceptance of what is. “I don’t know these two guys, but....”

     He used a genderless word, but Rain had to mean not our two hosts but the two guards I’d been stuck on a ship with longer than any time I’d spent with him.

     “No, not them. Anyone.”

     “Anyone,” Rain said, leaning back and rolling the word, and all its implications, around in his mind. “Hmm, I’m happy with you, but I trust your judgement in people. Did you have someone, or someones, in mind?”

     He was teasing -- he was not, he was waiting for my answer: who are we?

     “No, I... Oh God, you, must think I’m unhappy with you, or that I’ve met someone else.”

     Rain took a drink of this world’s tisane and set his mug back on the floor. It was a comfortable gesture from when we were first married, when we shared his ship’s one bed. He smiled.

     “No, I don’t think that. And I have no idea if I can love more than one person. I’d be willing to try, if it means staying married to you. It might do a lot of damage to us, but it all depends on who, and how we go about it,” he looked at me, kind, and trusting. My heart ached with how much I loved him.

     “You’re the best husband in the galaxy.”

     “Have you thought about how this might work because we see so little of each other?”

     “Yes,” I said, shifting and resting my head on his shoulder, “but we were together all the time until we got hauled in to base, so I’m not very worried.”

     Rain reached over and rubbed my side, glad I was close enough to touch. He rested his head against mine.

     “If this all goes well,” I said, “I’ll be home in another seven-and-a-half years, minus transit time home from the second-to-last world my abductor had clients on. I’ll make it back for our 18th wedding anniversary.”

     “All of your children will be grown by then,” Rain said. He sounded sad that the two of us would not raise a one of them together. I knew he was glad that we would have all the years after alone together.

     “How do you stay married to me? I’m never home, I keep sending strangers’ children, and colonial refugees....”

     Rain moved his cheek against me and moved to settle on top of me and give me a long kiss.

     “How do you stay married without me?” he asked, “I so want to be with you, and comfort you, and show them you’re worth infinitely more than how they treated you. I’m proud you’re mine, I’m glad you’re mine, no one in the whole universe has any idea how brave you are, how strong you are, how loving, and how good.”

     “Our guards do,” I answered. “They do a lot of smiling, they keep trying to tell me they’re not warders but friends, and they’ve stayed away after Coy’s husband shooed them out.”

     “Marry one of them,” Rain murmured, thinking to himself. They were the only two other adults permanently assigned to our world; I had not known anyone else on our world who was staying longer than six months, so I had to mean them, or nobody.

     “I think they’re a set, the two of them.”

     “It’d be a marriage on different terms than our marriage,” Rain said, thinking out loud, “unless things change in ways I can’t see with all four of us. It’d be a frontier marriage, now: dedication to the children and construction projects. I’m not sure why people dignify colleagues, or what people on earth would call ‘friendship’, with mutual lifelong vows. I suppose there’s still that tradition from the Starving Times on earth when people would marry acquaintances, fellow refugees, in order to adopt their children, get an extra allotment from the dole, get them an emigration permit, make them eligible for refugee clinics, have someone to watch the children while they gathered water or firewood.... I’ve always thought that was noble and selfless, but I’ve never wanted to do it myself. Have you gotten very fond of our guards?”

     I barely liked them.

     The possibility of a wider marriage rested within me, clear and cool. I was not going to grab anyone’s hand and run for the chaplain’s office once we docked at base; it would be years before we stood at another Magistrate’s desk. The realization came years too early, long before I or Rain felt anything, but it was true.

     “No, Rain. I don’t even know where that came from.”

     “Well,” he said, settling to sleep, “then let’s not worry about it right now. Let’s turn in for as long as they’ll let us. As soon as you’re well and the ship’s vacworthy we’ll have to be on our way in separate rooms for the trip back to base.”

     I tried to stay awake, but the wood in the stone fireplace became coals, the guest room became dark and warm, the wind dropped off, and a gentle patter of rain began to fall on the roof. The softness of the bed invited sleep, as did the familiar shape of my husband’s body against me. His relaxed breathing, his presence, which had always meant I was comfortable and safe, made me drop off into unconsciousness. As my Tito Potosí always used to say, “tomorrow’s worries will have to take care of themselves”.

END



Planet 42 (Editor’s Cut)

 

By Lisa Shapter

 

 

     “Colony world 12867," I said again, tapping my fingers on the Shoebill’s piloting console. “Colony world 12867, this is Magistrate Gestae of the Pisces 2174, nicknamed the Shoebill, doing a nav courtesy check." I held my breath, a silence could mean as little as someone nailing a loose shingle on a roof or fixing the alignment of a ten meter communications tower; it could mean everyone was dead from some local illness.

     Someone activated a ship’s intercom pressure switch, the first noise I heard was his palm hitting the wall beside the pickup. I tensed with worry, but the voice was flustered and happy.

     Shoebill, this is Colony world 12867, Coy’s World. Everyone here is fine.... Our daughter, uh, our cloned daughter is just in the ship’s medlab for a routine checkup. Everything’s well and on schedule here, everyone’s healthy. Do you need any aid, Shoebill?”

     The man’s voice slid from all but shouting his parthenogenic daughter was self-pregnant with her second child, which must have been the reason for the trip to the medlab, to crisp, standard nav courtesies. I was briefly angry. I could be an Exploratory Corps secrecy enforcement officer, and that stumble over “our cloned daughter” when it should be “our clone” could be enough to make a grunt or a civilian contractor wonder about the Corps’ secrets. At the moment those secrets made me angry, but I was not in this solar system to visit Coy’s World; this was simply a check to be certain all was well. I was due an update from base, but according to Corps records I was the second ship to pass by this world in the eight years since the planet’s founding.

     “Captain Philips?" I asked coolly.

     “He’s ...." The speaker turned his head away from the wall pickup, then I heard the indistinct voice of another man. “I’ll take this up front." A transfer tone and several moments of silence as the pickup in the ship’s forward piloting console came on. I listened to the man’s boots pounding up the ship’s central corridor. He ran like a grunt. Then the clatter of someone hitting the seat and checking the pickup.

     “This is First Lieutenant Vester Coy, team Geologist of colonial planet #12867. Do you need any aid, Shoebill –- Magistrate Gestae?" The man’s voice was as sharp as a newly unpacked uniform, and he probably had my personnel record and the ship’s record on screen before his sentence was finished.

     I wanted to ask about the daughter’s pregnancy. I could not by farspace law. Lt. Coy’s ‘we’re all well’ would have to cover himself, his commander, their two parthenogenic children, and their two parthenogenic grandchildren, who were not yet school aged.

     “I’m fine,” I replied. “The Shoebill is just passing through 12867's orbit on the way to an assigned stop at 12862, five orbits in.”

     “Your party’s there to meet you,” Lt. Coy said in almost a neutral voice:  he must have read enough of my record to know this would be an awful meeting.  “Two is a Venus-like, Magistrate, and 3 through 6 would be moons if they didn’t have their own orbits.  They probably started out as moons.  Fly carefully.”

     “The Shoebill has a route mapped, anything I should be careful of?”

     Other than the people I was going to meet:  I could almost hear Lt. Coy thinking that.  I agreed with him.  I looked back over the planet’s record.

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Planet 42 –- Planet Catalogue # 12862

 

2   Men

2  Go Through with it

0  Fertilization

 

Mother had no idea.

* = father(s)

 

All names from The Oxford Dictionary of the Christian Church

 

Team: (current ranks)

Commander: Captain Marbeck Quétif   (Mother) (Forestry science)

Second Lieutenant Gérin Nunquam (Climatologist)

Second Lieutenant Troxell Siddals (Astronomer)

(Biologist took sick)

 

3 Children:

Sirmond boy, 5 biological age, not yet pregnant

Herculano boy, 4 1/2 biological age

Carnap boy, 31/2 biological age

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 Unlike me neither of them had spent a year on base being changed to carry a child.  Who was the mother of their two children?  I saved myself by remembering that colony worlds were usually named after their male mothers.

     “This is Captain Philips.”  The second voice broke in from the ship’s medical lab.

     “All’s well, Captain Philips?”

     “All’s well,” the man said, the tone of a calm smile in his voice.  “Thank you for your good wishes, Magistrate Gestae.”  His tone somehow managed to convey that he read my record and he knew any congratulations of another man’s motherhood would be bittersweet.  “Clear space,” he added, signing off with brief nav formalities.

     They sounded happy, I wanted to go anywhere that sounded happy.  I did not want to go to an inhospitably hot world with an unbreathable atmosphere to see two criminals, but I spent a moment at the Shoebill’s piloting console thinking about orders; the Corps had put me in jail for disobeying orders once before, I could not give them any excuse to do so again.

###

     The ship found her way steadily through weak but complex gravities, avoiding several small bodies whose trajectories might or might not have earned them classification as natural impact debris, meteoroids, or asteroids. All I cared about was damage to the Shoebill’s hull, and she got through clean.

     I set down on planet #12862, a Venus-like, confirmed that I would suffocate before I roasted in the outer atmosphere, double-checked my ‘suit, and stepped through the fields, which separated ship’s air from atmosphere. I spent a moment adjusting the ‘suit’s controls so a scroll of chemistry data stopped passing over the lower-left faceplate of my helmet. I told the ‘suit to tell me if it began to corrode or otherwise became compromised. I looked up to see one ‘suited figure at the base of my ship’s landing ramp.

     It should be four by personnel records.

     “This is a colony world?” I asked. Visibility was a variable 1-2 meters; through the fog the landscape was made up of the sort of blobby formations one sees in a wet cave.

     “This is a colony world,” a man’s voice replied over my ‘suit’s intercom. The Exploratory Corps gave up on terraforming years ago: the success rate was low. The cost of shipping barges of equipment and large teams of specialists was, well, astronomical, even for earth’s last military and only space agency.

     “And you’re trying to... what?” I asked, perhaps there were edible life forms to domesticate, but no earth crops would grow here outside of artificial, greenhouse conditions.

     “Found a colony,” the man said with a sigh. “The expense isn’t much greater on a marginal world than on a habitable one. The resource profile makes it worth it. Or it will to our great-great grandchildren.” I guessed something from the way he said ‘our’ but waited. He put out his hand. “Captain Marbeck Quétif, I owe all the children I bore on this world to you, Magistrate Gestae.”

     I stepped on to ground; a soft ground, which made the ‘suit flash a warning across my faceplate about watching my footing. I was close enough to see the other man -- or woman’s -- face; hormonal changes don’t alter bone structure, not in a grown person’s. No way of telling if this was the world’s mother or one of my perpetrators.

     She smiled at my suspicious look.

     “I should have put red stripes on this ‘suit. We use them so often, interchangeably that it makes no sense to mark one ‘Mission Commander’. I passed all my tests after the year of changes on base, Magistrate Gestae; but once I got out here, I couldn’t conceive from any man’s sample in our ship’s library. As the donor mother of our three children I owe you thanks.” A tone, dryly bitter, in her tenor voice. I knew she would not say more over a pickup, which both of our ships were recording.

     I had spoken to many women who could not conceive planetside for a hundred local reasons: the procedure is experimental, and every 28 days there is a chance for something new to go wrong. No way to tell what some new world will do to a mother’s (or a father’s) health. A clean ship’s medical lab isn’t the same as a sterile hospital room with techs and specialists. According to her ship’s records this woman had reported to the ship’s lab once a month throughout the required window, taken every precaution with herself and the library of samples, and had never gotten pregnant. Talking to her now, I was certain she had forged something: a dab of sealant on the end of the medical probe, soaking one’s hands in hot water after backing the external-constructed womb away and holding the fertilizing probe between two palms so the DNA and temperature readings check out. I have heard of all kinds of ways to fool a ship’s rudimentary medical computer into recording an attempt at conception when none is possible. Her teammates’ desperation to sustain this mission and their colony had made them commit crimes against me. They had kept her in a place she did not like raising the children of men she had not wanted to be fathers.

     “I’m sorry,” I said.

     “I’m supposed to say that to you, Magistrate Gestae.” Her voice took on the tone of shrugged shoulders. “It’s not so bad.”

     I made the normal, polite enquiries after her team and their children’s health.

###

 I walked through their greenhouses, their algae outcrops, and ‘aquaculture’ facilities (empty except for a native edible fish-analogue).

     Then the first of my perpetrators, Second Lieutenant Gérin Nunquam sat across from me in the mess hall, took off his ‘suit helmet, and stared at me. He had seen my face before. (He snapped his fingers in front of my drugged face, but I never saw him.) He seemed shocked that I existed, or that I was not mute and paralyzed, or that I had returned. He stared at me. He put his face in his hands. I was not sure I could count that as an apology. He left the room.

     Second Lieutenant Troxell Siddals took his place. He was one of those who cannot bear what he has done, so he blamed me: shackled flat on my back and helpless I had somehow made him do this. Commander Quétif sent him out before he got through the first sentence. She followed him and spoke to him, but he did not return.

     I met our children, they were certainly mine. Commander Quétif and I talked about the shared custody the law requires. Putting it into practice without Siddals’ and Nunquam’s consents made the legal requirement theoretical. Her men had lied to her about where they went and what they had done on my pimp’s ship. Yet the Commander knew perfectly well her pseudoeggs had not produced these three embryos in their three medical storage cubes. She had always told her children she had carried and nursed them; but when another Magistrate had arrived to investigate the charges, they did understand that the eggs that grew inside Mommy had been stolen. (They were too young to know exactly how.)

     I learned of a third perpetrator, the team’s Biologist. Their ship’s medical records gave me no reason to label his death ‘suspicious’. His final months of illness and the scar his loss left on this team and their small children would be too difficult to fake. I scanned so little terran organic matter here that he had been, well what they did with the dead in that novel about Mars (and on some actual terraformed worlds). He was mulched. He had been broken down into organic compounds first so nothing to run a forensic scan on.

     I took off my ‘suit, stowed it in the mess hall’s doorside locker, and sat down in thermals and booties across from Commander Quétif. She picked up her helmet and said something into it; some preprogrammed command to shut off recording. I preferred to put my helmet out of pickup range. It is too easy for base to program a ship’s computer to ignore certain orders in the field, even from a mission commander.

     “Do you think we murdered our Biologist?” she said with a quirky smile. “He was happy here. Climatologist Nunquam is thrilled to be posted to a non-earthlike. Astronomer Siddals can study the formation of this solar system and the history of this nav region until the sun goes nova. As a Forestry Scientist I have to magnify algae and pretend they’re very simple trees with no leaves or bark.” She turned her head, and the shoulders of her suit moved a little, a gesture, which even years ‘suited had not broken.

     “I can get you out of here,” I said.

     She looked at me, studying my face.

     “Why?” She began to smile a little, “am I that handsome? What on earth could you want me for?”

     “I need staff to help raise my children. You could bring ....”

     “I’d rather not bring anything,” she said softly. She stood, went and picked up her helmet, then stood at attention before me. “Magistrate, I have no kit, but I will serve the Pisces #2174, the Shoebill, faithfully.”

     “As a Magistrate I can’t be your CO. We’re outside the normal Command structure,” I said, “but I can send some paperwork to base ahead of us, request transfer to my world, put some urgent legal reasons behind it.”

     She followed me without hesitation, making no sign of pausing for any possessions, taking any of the children, or saying goodbye to anyone on this world. She helped me into my ‘suit. I checked it as she put on and tested her helmet, and I followed my ‘suit’s directions on how to get back to the Shoebill without tripping or getting mired in soft ground.

     “How long have you been here?”

     “Seven years,” she said. It had the tone of a gently ironic ‘seven happy years’.

     “Thank you for walking me to my ship. Usually it’s only a courtesy, but in this environment you could almost lose a 20-man ship.”

     “I have on bad days. As I said, Climatologist Nunquam is very happy with his assignment here.”

     “What are you currently working on?”

     “Oh, just maintenance really. We’ve got five types of algae growing in what I suppose you could call ‘agricultural conditions’. It’s more finding wild colonies and tending and expanding them. As with any alien species there’s a lot of trial and error and few of the kinds of problems -- and little of the kind of work -- I hoped to be doing here. We scanned some tree-analogues in the other hemisphere. I go to study them when I can, but they’re on a long cycle that wasn’t dormant when the first scouts were here. Now I just go check on equipment, watch readings from my desk, and hope someone in 200 years will find all of this interesting or helpful when they do come into flower. They aren’t flowers, actually....” She stopped, “it doesn’t matter, now.”

     “No, it doesn’t,” I said quietly.

     We got to the ship, I went onboard to run the internal checklist while the Commander went to do the external inspection; making sure none of the landing legs were mired and that nothing had damaged the ship in my absence.

     “No sign of tampering,” she said, her helmet pickup routed to the ship’s internal intercom. Her voice sounded lackadaisical but tense.

                “Commander Quétif?”

     I could not tell if I was listening to an open pickup of anxious breathing or local interference this close to the planet’s sun. I waited a moment and had the ship check: the Shoebill reported no one within the liftoff blast radius. I put my ‘suit back on and went outside with a pistol. I made a long, careful scan of the fog by instruments and my own senses, but I saw no one. Returning to the ship’s temperate environment, the back of my thermal shirt clung damp and cold against my back. At my demands that I would not leave without an assurance of the Commander’s welfare, a ‘suited figure came out of a distant workbuilding and waved, saying nothing. I began to pick my way across the terrain, but I got knocked on my back by pistol fire: a hand weapon could not defeat the ‘suit’s fields with one shot. A lucky shot or repeated hits might. I rolled and crawled, hoping the muck and fog would camouflage the suit’s reflective outer skin. I stayed low to present less of a target. Basic training took over fear. I kept moving and looking, keeping to fog and cover as best I could. I got to the base of the landing ramp. I made the best check I could of whether I was being followed or targeted. Visibility had dropped to .5-1 meter. I ran up the landing ramp, got into the safety of the ship’s fields, and felt its automated systems doing the best they could with the chemical mud on my ‘suit. I stuffed the thing into processing as soon as I had clearance two steps into the corridor.

     I made preparations for a quick spacerise, made sure no one was near the ship, did not go through nav courtesies. I checked one last time that no one had come out to fly away with me; then I left the piloting console once autopilot pulled out of orbit to sit down in my office and charge Commander Quétif’s teammates with attempted murder, unlawful detention, and every applicable crime I could think of.

     As I drew up probable causes, I knew I could not be sure she was dead; but she had not simply fainted during the outside check. The Shoebill could not pick up her ‘suit beacon. If she had changed her mind about leaving, she would have said something. I hoped her teammates had only knocked her out; but the silence and utter lack of signs of a soldier in distress made me believe she was dead.

                Five hundred clicks past the planet’s gravity  well something thudded into my ship, knocking the stylus out of my hand: one isn’t supposed to feel anything in open space. I began to go aft, it seemed to be where the impact was. Perhaps Quétif had lived and had somehow gotten into a scout craft and followed me up. If she had to keep transmission silence, then a tap on my hull would be the only way to tell me I ought to let her dock in the craft bay. It was an awfully hard tap. I felt the ship yaw before the inertial dampeners caught up with the motion.

     Another blow: the ship was doing her automated best in the system’s asteroid belt. I had not taken the time to ask her to route a safe path back out, and everything had, of course, moved since the path that took us in was wide open. I should have been up front at the piloting console; although it was not impossible that one of Commander Quétif’s teammates had sabotaged this ship during the tour or after our talk.

     The floor flew away from my feet. I hit the corridor’s ceiling dazingly hard. I was not really worried as the ship’s floor came back at me at some uncontrolled speed. Automated metal arms would pull me into the medical lab and mend any injuries I received. As soon as I got into communications range Coy and Philips on the farther inhabited world in this system would do a nav check. If the Shoebill reported damage and I did not reply, they would be out here as fast as they could light their own craft. If they somehow neglected this duty, the Shoebill would pilot herself to base while the ship’s medical computer kept me unconscious and stable. If I did not die on impact and if the ship kept hull integrity, I’d be fine; but the floor sure would hurt.

My last conscious sight was the floor coming at me.

###

     I woke up, and someone was trying to put something over my head. I tried to fight him off, and, unlike most Corpsmen, he did not try to pin my arms: I would have gone for my sidearm if he had. Instead, he let me take in that the inside of the helmet had air, and I instinctively reached to pull it on. While my hands were busy with automatic adjustments and checks, he made the tears at the appropriate catchpoints in my thermals for vitals monitoring. He was only doing his job: he pulled me onto a splayed-out suit, and quickly fastened and sealed all the components, starting with my core. The suit automatically set up its connections and monitoring leads and lit up with healing fields. I was briefly blind while it shut off my optic nerves, so I would not see the visual disturbances caused by running the fields over my eyes. My sight was back before I had time to gasp. With the oxygen and fixes to my injuries the pain in my head cleared, but I lay still and let him finish fastening the suit’s legs and arms as the suit replaced hypothermic cold with warmth,  and let those fields finish their work. The process went faster if I did not try to help.

     The Corpsman’s gloved thumb did the final external checks, touching a pressure switch on my chest and on the side of my helmet. Everything seemed to have a green light, and the suit apparently reported all of my injuries had been treated.

     I was looking through permiglass at what might as well have been the face of a popular young American football captain who has no idea why people admired him: my rescuer was blond, handsome, fair-skinned, and a picture of wholesome, tanned good health. A colony life of regular outdoor exercise in a moderate climate with a mostly-vegetarian diet obviously agreed with him. There were care lines on his face, emphasized when he was worried, but they vanished when I smiled at him. He grinned back through his faceplate.

     “Is that better, Magistrate Gestae?” his voice said over the helmet’s output.

     He might as well have said ‘coach’.

     “Much. Nightskyman?”

     “First Lieutenant Vester Coy. I’ll get you into the Spes, and check the tow line.” She, for Coy was her world’s mother, grabbed me in a rescue carry, secure and strong, but not the crushing squeeze most grunts would use. She hauled me into the back of the small craft parked in my ship’s central corridor, sealed the craft’s doors, and, with a disorienting flip and yaw, flew out my ship’s atmospheric door with exactly the neat maneuver for getting through a door designed for people, not scout craft.

###

     I found myself on her main ship’s hospital bed, still in my spacesuit, as she cheerfully went out to do the dangerous check on the towline between her working ship and my disabled one. Another set of healing fields and I was well enough to take the suit off myself and push it into the hopper for processing. The medical computer told me to lie back down, and I agreed: the brief effort had made the edges of my vision turn dark grey. A mechanical arm came down from the ceiling and whirred while the ship’s medical computer looked for the right placement for hydration and monitoring leads. The whole room became glorious in all its utilitarian, rounded-corner white and lilac glory: the ship had boosted the medlab’s oxygen content.

     My rescuer was taking off her suit at the other end of the corridor and singing some ancient song in a weird modality. She sounded happy. I heard her boots thudding up the corridor.

     “How’re we doing, Magistrate Gestae?”

     Again it sounded like ‘coach’.

     “‘Resada’ will do.”

     “OK, Resada.”

     It still sounded like ‘coach’.

     She came over to look into my face. I looked back at her.

     “Your record says you’ve got a husband. It’s just the oxygen and the endorphins,” she cautioned. “It’ll wear off.”

     “I don’t like women,” I assured her.

     “That’s a shame, women are great,” she said, the unthinking opinion of any young man on earth, as though Coy did not remember she was in farspace or the changes done to her.

     I could not get a crush on this woman: I really didn’t like women, and her sunny temperament already grated on me.

     She thumped forward, and I lay in the medlab until I felt the bump of the ship entering atmosphere. I felt for the datatablet she had put on the bedside tray.

     Coy, I thought we were going back to base,’ I typed.

     “I can’t leave my kids right now,” the doorside intercom replied. “I’ve sent a message to your husband.”

     “I’m not authorized to land....”

     “Your record says you are,” Coy said. “I know why you were on that world. Stay with us awhile, rest up, your spouse will come and get you, and you can go to the next world together.”

     I thought about that lovely idea for a long moment. Orders kept us apart. The Exploratory Corp ignores marriages when it gives orders; farspace is too large to see that every pair and group stay together, no matter what their rank or training.

     “I have our ship, Coy.”

     It would be months for Coy’s message to reach my assigned world; it would take months for my husband’s reply to reach here. My ship would need to be repaired. Even if my husband somehow got passage on a second ship and left the moment Coy’s message arrived, he would take even further months to get here. I did not want to stay here for most of a year. I did not want to become part of this family. I did not want what could never be mine hung in front of my face.

     Her ship lurched and rocked. Emergency fields held me to the bed, and inertial dampeners made it feel like a brief carnival ride rather than a life-threatening danger.

     “This is the Pisces #2456, the Spes, at 27 km. Watch your descent, you’re within the 150 meter minimum,” Lt Coy said, far calmer than I would have been.

     “Climbing to 30 km. Sorry, Spes, sudden decal. We were in the area,” the door-side intercom relayed: Coy had not shut off the piloting room pickup. It was not the voice of my husband, but of one of the guards assigned to be sure I went to the meetings with my perpetrators and that I followed all Corps orders.

     I would have to put up with him needling me about this mission and my past mistakes all the way to the next world, starting with letting my ship connect with an asteroid.

     Of course my guard had not been in the area: this ship had come from a base relaying the message out to my husband. I do not know how my custodian had gotten permission to do it, but he had put the ship in classified emergency mode, and the craft had punched a hole in the universe to get here. In minutes my minder would be standing over my bed, asking why I had smashed up my ship, left the inner world with my assignment unfinished, and how I had been dumb enough to be away from the piloting console while flying through hazards. Nothing was a good reason to him. I curled up in the bed and put my arm over my head. The medical computer noticed my agitation and gave me a sedative.

###

     I woke up to the smell of pancakes, the faint smells of sawdust and clay, and a smell like roses. I was not dreaming. I was lying in a strange, deep, soft bed with warm covers drawn up to my shoulders, pleasant flannel bedding, and a perfectly comfortable pillow. Gravity was so close to earth’s that I would have to get out of bed and jump up and down to tell the difference. I could hear the soft draft and crackle of a fireplace; just enough muted wind and rain to make the house cozy; and the sound of someone making tea or tisane with a metal kettle, metal spoons, and thick, clay mugs. The table or counter top had some kind of quilted mats or protective covering, nothing had been put down on bare wood or stone.

     “You can’t fool me, you’re awake.”

     I twisted and sat up: my husband was sitting at my bedside, smiling. After years of not seeing him I poked him in the chest: I had dreamed or hallucinated his presence before. The combination of medlab drugs and danger, or an unnoticed microinjury to the brain, made the possibility of hallucination likely. He was here. I threw my arms around him and pulled him onto the bed.

     “I am so glad to see you.”

     Rain kissed me and put his arms around me. He said nothing, he didn’t need to say anything.

     “How did you...?”

     “It’s a long and not a completely happy story,” my husband said, holding me tightly. “Your ship’s emergency beacon reached us before Lt Coy’s message did, and as much as I wanted to blaze here it wasn’t my idea.”

     “Are our guards in the room?”

     Rain nodded.

     “How many of them?”

     “Two,” a gruff voice answered from the direction of the table.

     “And we’re not supposed to leave the two of you alone,” a second voice said. Heavy, booted feet came up to the foot of the bed across a wooden floor. “Sorry,” he added. “You two have a history of....”

     “Conspiracy, collusion, confiscation, and desertion,” Rain said, getting up with another kiss. “I remember. You arrested us,” he said softly and patted my hand, “everything else will have to wait.”

     “Back away, and speak at a normal volume.”

     Rain looked irritated: it was not his way to be sentimental, but he looked ready to half-shout pillow talk in order to embarrass our guards into leaving. I knew what they would do: they would set their faces and stay no matter what we did, not wanting to give us a cover for planning further criminal activities.

     “I hate them,” I said, not caring if my tone was not quiet enough to be inaudible two meters away.

     Rain shrugged, “we earned the Corp’s mistrust. I tried to get you back to base the moment I found you and you sabotaged my ship.”

     “Now what?”

     “We take you back to base,” the guard at the foot of my bed replied.

     “Couldn’t you leave them alone?” a voice said from the table, this world’s commander, Edward Philips. He spoke with the shadow of an order in his voice, although no commander could tell any Magistrate what to do, and our two guards were Magistrates. The guard in the kitchen was saying something. “Out,” Edward said. “Both of you out. I will see to this woman’s welfare while she is on our world.” He saw them both out and followed.

     “I can’t imagine they’ve gone far,” Rain murmured.

     “I’m tired and upset....”

     “I know,” he said softly. “I am, too -- I’ll explain another time.” He bent to take off his boots and, pulling back the covers, then got into bed with all his clothes on. He put his arms around me. “You have no idea how difficult my life is without you. Every day I wish you were with me, wish I could know what you think, want to talk with you, plan with you. Every day I wish I didn’t have to go to bed alone, eat without you, no matter how many colonists and staff are there ….” Rain let out a deep sigh. “I love you so much I can’t stand being married and barely seeing you.”

     “You took the words out of my mouth,” I said. “I just want to sleep.”

     “Do you want some hot tea? Tisane really, this is the wrong latitude for tea.”

     That sounded lovely, but it would get cold by the time I woke up again. I listened to the drowsy sounds of the fireplace and the weather outside.

     “Sure.”

     He got out of bed. I heard the sound of hot water pouring from a kettle, and he brought two mugs over from the kitchen table.

     “I don’t think I’ve ever tasted anything like it, but you get used to it.”

     I took a drink, it was pleasantly hot, and... something naturally sweet like brown baking spices, or maybe sassafras, hearty like a roasted, brown rice tea, a tang that was not sourness or astringency. It all went by too quickly and was too strange to put into words, not while I was this tired. I was glad to have something hot to drink that was not ship’s coffee.

     “So?” I said.

     “We’re together now,” Rain said with a shrug. It was exactly like him to accept the moment for what it was. “Sleep sounds good. I sleep better when I’m with you.”

     I had a miserable image in my mind’s eye of him restless with insomnia, alone in our bed on our world.

     I looked around for somewhere to put the mostly full cup, and found a windowsill just deep enough for a lantern, a mug, and a book. I already liked these people. I listened to the tinkling coals forming under the firewood and the mild fall drizzle.

     “Is there any way we could stay?”

     “Hmm, that first moment of coming to -- to find someone sitting by your bedside -- can be a surprising one: it sometimes changes lives.”

     Rain jostled the bed, moving to see how close to the window our guards were, then looked at me as if everyone in the universe would love me at first sight, as he had. He went on before I could ask him any question about some bedside memory he did not mention. He had never been ill.

     He settled in by me and took a drink, considering how to say something charged.

     “You made Vester nervous,” my husband observed; his indirectness made me anxious. “She’s a simple soul, she fell in love with her husband when she was sent on a rescue mission after his scout craft. They were marooned on the world, alone together for months.”

     “Then they must understand our story.”

     “Well nobody shot the engine in their story,” my husband replied.

     I shrugged, “just glad to see a friendly face. I was blacking out from ox dep and hyp.”

     I was astonished Rain was not jealous: I worried I sounded insincere. I felt for his hand and felt the same grasp as the hand that took mine the day we married -- on the first day we met. I tried to add up how much time we’d spent together: the stay here to recover and repair my ship might be more than that.

     “You’ll want to make that clear to her before we leave.”

     Rain was bemused, shutting the door on nothing, waiting for my answer.

     It was hard to get used to thinking of that footballer’s frame as female.

     “Her record doesn’t say she’s been to base for the changes I went through,” I said, wondering if I had missed something.

     “Experimental procedure, all of it onworld, pills and medlab visits. It worked: they have two children, one grandchild, two more on the way. Successful colony, even with just the two of them. They could use more people even with their assigned staff.”

     I thought of Coy’s caution and felt a very disturbing reality that I might be able to love more than one person at once. It was just there, clear, with no one in mind. I had dated three people once on earth before I enlisted. It hadn’t lasted long, and they moved on without me. If I did ever want to expand our marriage, Rain would have to want that too, with just the same people. I did not want to marry Coy; instead, I felt sad that I had married too quickly with too little discussion and had too little time being married.

     “Would you... would you ever want to widen our marriage, Rain?”

     “I’d be willing to try,” Rain said, astonishing me. “Do you want to stay here?” he said, with his utter acceptance of what is. “I don’t know these two guys, but....”

     He used a genderless word, but Rain had to mean not our two hosts but the two guards I’d been stuck on a ship with longer than any time I’d spent with him.

     “No, not them. Anyone.”

     “Anyone,” Rain said, leaning back and rolling the word, and all its implications, around in his mind. “Hmm, I’m happy with you, but I trust your judgement in people. Did you have someone, or someones, in mind?”

     He was teasing -- he was not, he was waiting for my answer: who are we?

     “No, I... Oh God, you, must think I’m unhappy with you, or that I’ve met someone else.”

     Rain took a drink of this world’s tisane and set his mug back on the floor. It was a comfortable gesture from when we were first married, when we shared his ship’s one bed. He smiled.

     “No, I don’t think that. And I have no idea if I can love more than one person. I’d be willing to try, if it means staying married to you. It might do a lot of damage to us, but it all depends on who, and how we go about it.” He looked at me, kind, and trusting. My heart ached with how much I loved him.

     “You’re the best husband in the galaxy.”

     “Have you thought about how this might work because we see so little of each other?”

     “Yes,” I said, shifting and resting my head on his shoulder, “but we were together all the time until we got hauled in to base, so I’m not very worried.”

     Rain reached over and rubbed my side, glad I was close enough to touch. He rested his head against mine.

     “If this all goes well,” I said, “I’ll be home in another seven-and-a-half years, minus transit time home from the second-to-last world my abductor had clients on. I’ll make it back for our 18th wedding anniversary.”

     “All of your children will be grown by then,” Rain said. He sounded sad that the two of us would not raise a one of them together. I knew he was glad that we would have all the years after alone together.

     “How do you stay married to me? I’m never home, I keep sending strangers’ children and colonial refugees....”

     Rain moved his cheek against me and moved to settle on top of me and give me a long kiss.

     “How do you stay married without me?” he asked. “I so want to be with you, and comfort you, and show them you’re worth infinitely more than how they treated you. I’m proud you’re mine, I’m glad you’re mine, no one in the whole universe has any idea how brave you are, how strong you are, how loving, and how good.”

     “Our guards do,” I answered. “They do a lot of smiling, they keep trying to tell me they’re not warders but friends, and they’ve stayed away after Coy’s husband shooed them out.”

     “Marry one of them,” Rain murmured, thinking to himself. They were the only two other adults permanently assigned to our world; I had not known anyone else on our world who was staying longer than six months, so I had to mean them, or nobody.

     “I think they’re a set, the two of them.”

     “It’d be a marriage on different terms than our marriage,” Rain said, thinking out loud, “unless things change in ways I can’t see with all four of us. It’d be a frontier marriage, now: dedication to the children and construction projects. I’m not sure why people dignify colleagues, or what people on earth would call ‘friendship’, with mutual, lifelong vows. I suppose there’s still that tradition from the Starving Times on earth when people would marry acquaintances, fellow refugees, in order to adopt their children, get an extra allotment from the dole, get them an emigration permit, make them eligible for refugee clinics, have someone to watch the children while they gathered water or firewood.... I’ve always thought that was noble and selfless, but I’ve never wanted to do it myself. Have you gotten very fond of our guards?”

     I barely liked them.

     The possibility of a wider marriage rested within me, clear and cool. I was not going to grab anyone’s hand and run for the chaplain’s office once we docked at base; it would be years before we stood at another Magistrate’s desk. The realization came years too early, long before I or Rain felt anything, but it was true.

     “No, Rain. I don’t even know where that came from.”

     “Well,” he said, settling to sleep, “then let’s not worry about it right now. Let’s turn in for as long as they’ll let us. As soon as you’re well and the ship’s vacworthy we’ll have to be on our way in separate rooms for the trip back to base.”

     I tried to stay awake, but the wood in the stone fireplace became coals, the guest room became dark and warm, the wind dropped off, and a gentle patter of rain began to fall on the roof. The softness of the bed invited sleep, as did the familiar shape of my husband’s body against me. His relaxed breathing, his presence, which had always meant I was comfortable and safe, made me drop off into unconsciousness. As my Tito Potosí always used to say, “Tomorrow’s worries will have to take care of themselves”.

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